Dated September 16th, 2015, an English journal entry popped out of the myriad of school papers. With wide eyes and while holding my breath, what I read was one of the most gut-wrenching parenting realities. As I have shared, the start of the school year was full of 'forgot to bolus', or 'forgot to check'. Reading her thoughts provides a rear view mirror to the road map that I wished to have found sooner.
Middle school (and a new school for her this year) is tricky on the best of days. While my first reaction was a wish to have intercepted her words sooner, I know that her inner heart was handled with love and kindness. Taking a second look through that same rear view mirror, the sentiment that was expressed by her teacher, especially after having only been in class for a few weeks, was the perfect tonic to soothe her worry. Even better than if the same words had been spoken by mom or dad. Sometimes the words with the biggest weight and the most meaning, linger longer in the mind when it comes from someone outside of their comfort zone. Like my girls have teased, I have to love them! In this case, their teacher, does not. The result? As we finish this long growth-filled year, she has moved away from the 'forgots', found her circle of camaraderie and eagerly awaits her upcoming summer adventures. She is happy. She is loved. She is ready.
If I could change one thing about my life, it would be to not have type one diabetes. I would like to not have it because it gets in the way sometimes.
Thank you for crossing that out. There is no such thing as a "normal 11 year old girl". Every single one that I have ever known is unique and special and one of a kind. Including you. :)