Earlier this morning, my phone rang. It wasn't the typical time of day for either one of my little girls to be calling, so I wasn't overly concerned. I finished my last sip of coffee and strolled into the kitchen to retrieve my cell phone.
Then, I saw her lovely face on the caller ID.
"Mom?" She said, while sounding a bit breathless.
I answered her and immediately asked if everything was alright. While waiting for the answer, the little hairs on my arm stood to attention in anticipation of a dreaded response.
"Yes. I just finished that science test and I got a 93%."
Relaxing, for just a moment, I congratulated her and told her how proud I was.
Impatient with me she said, "No. It's not good. I went into the test and my blood glucose was 189 mg/dl and now, I am 83 mg/dl. I feel terrible. I dropped all that way in 45 minutes."
My concern escalated and I suddenly understood her reason for the call. It wasn't to tell me that she did well on a science test. It was to tell me that she was worried about her health and needed some reassurance on what to do.
We talked a bit more and I encouraged her to eat something to help both raise her blood sugar and to calm her nerves. From the noise in the background, I could tell that she was between classes and most likely rummaging through her locker goody-basket for something that sounded palatable.
A second more and while chewing, she said her good-bye and told me that she would call later but was already feeling better. I wisely understood that, most likely, she felt emotionally better but not physically better.
And she will be fine. I know this. We have lived in this world of type 1 diabetes for me to understand that cycle of high to low and back again.
But what I will never get over is the fact that our life can never fully celebrate the joy that we have without some part of type 1 diabetes creeping in.
What I wish I could have said without having to say anything else is this...
I am so proud that you did well on that science test. You are amazing. You are smart. You are strong. You are wonderful!